Friday, December 21, 2012

This Christmas...

So many hearts broken around the world this holiday season... the parents I've met through my journey that are inevitably losing or have already lost their angels due to the same condition that Leila had. The families of the innocent souls taken too soon in Connecticut last week. Families is soldiers having to spend another Christmas without their loved ones. There is so much bad in this world, and it seems to be getting worse and worse. There's no excuse anymore, people. Today is 12/21/12 and we're still here. The madness has got to stop. 2013 HAS to be better. I'm holding a gun to it's head and giving it no choice (yes, I realize the irony in that statement).

Among the heart break that our family has endured these last few weeks, I have also realized just how much good there is in the world. In peoples hearts and souls. People that don't even know us personally have come out of the woodwork and supported us beyond anything we could have dreamed. They have sent Christmas gifts to our boys and us, meals to our house, raised money for our family so that we have have a happy holiday despite our little girl only being with us in spirit. Our friends continue to reach out daily to ask what they can do to help. My coworkers held my hand when I fell apart upon my return to work. We're truly blessed to have each and every one of you in our lives. You have helped make what would have been a very difficult Christmas a bit merrier, and I am so thankful.

My New Years Resolution isn't going to be a cliche one. Lose weight. Eat healthier. Drink less. My resolution, once I have gotten myself into a place where I am healthy enough to do so, is to give back. One of the greatest lessons I have learned is that no one can go through tragedy alone. Everyone needs a hand to hold. I want to be that hand. I want to put a smile on a face that hasn't had one in days, because I know what that feels like.

My sweet baby girl, how I wish you were here with me. How I wish we had been able to spend this Christmas together. I know you are watching over me, holding my heart and helping me survive this. Please continue to do so. I need your guidance every day. Some days, when I can't carry myself, I need God to carry me and I know you're right there with him. I love you and miss you so much.



53 comments:

  1. Wishing you a Merry Christmas and yes 2013 will be a great year with many many blessings. Thank you for sharing Leila with us and know that she is forever in my heart as you are too! What a wonderful God we serve! Julie

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  2. The Hooker Family
    From Heaven with love

    Mama, Daddy, don't cry for me
    I'm not so far away.
    I'm having so much fun, you see,
    All I do is play.
    The streets are of the purest gold,
    Amazing just to see.
    And the gates of Heaven are of pearl;
    Hard to climb - even for me!

    There's a stream of crystal and water.
    I love to splash around.
    Only, Mom, there's no snakes or worms to dig,
    Not a spider to be found!
    I got to sit with Jesus,
    On His very knee!
    I didn't burp or squirm too much,
    You'd have been so proud of me.

    Don't worry 'bout my clothes either,
    They do a trick up here that's neat.
    Our clothes don't get dirty or full of holes
    And the shoes grow with our feet!
    There's lots of other boys and girls
    For me to have to play.
    So I'm not lonely, not a bit,
    And, oh Dad, by the way,
    Since there is no night here
    I don't get scared at all.
    I can't look up and see the shadow
    Of a monster on my wall.
    And I get to help groom horses
    Jesus has up here in stalls.
    He says we'll get to ride them
    When the angel Garbriel calls.
    So, you see, you shouldn't worry
    Or cry or be so sad
    If you can pretend that I'm at camp
    I know you will be glad.
    I love it here! It's an awesome place!
    There's so much to see and do.
    I'd like to stay and not come home
    If that's okay with you.

    Tell everyone I love them,
    Can't wait 'til you all get here.
    'Cause Heaven is a real neat place
    I sure am glad I'm here.

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    1. Thats so beautifull. Thank you for sharing it

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  3. It was with a heavy heart that I learnt of your Passing Emilee. You inspired many with your ability to put thoughts in to words and the love you had For Little Leila Grace. I know you were struggling and hope that you have been reunited in heaven with your sweet Leila. my thought are with your Family at this sad time as they come to terms with your loss xx

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  4. So very sad to hear of your passing,I have been following your blogs and stories you truly inspired me you were such a beautiful person***** May God be with your family at this devastating time my prayers are deeply with them God Bless :(

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  5. Emilee. I miss you so much already and I cant begin to tell you how much I love you. And how many times I wish I told you that. I cannot believe you're gone and I wish I had Dallas in my arms right now. I do not if I can ever dream with out having your images in my head. I wish I knew. I knew it was bad, I knew you were broken. But never....NEVER EM. I never thought this. I never fucking thought this. I hope you're holding your baby now and I hope you see the people you left behind that are completely broken so you know how much you really were loved. I love you EM. I cannot fathom acting normal or looking at life normal ever again.

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  6. Just ran across this blog when a friend like the facbook page associated with baby Leila Grace. I started reading the blog from beginning to end- often crying as I read you story. An hour has passed since I finished and discovered that Emilee took her own life. I Pray for her family especially her husband and young son during this very difficult time. To Emilee I hope that you have been reunited with baby Leila and that your sufferinghas ended.

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  7. Please RIP.
    because the people you left behind wont get to LIVE in peace.

    I know you were hurting, I know you missed your daughter, but HOW COULD YOU take your own life and leave your son without a mommy?!

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    1. He didn't have a real Dad either. His bio Dad wasn't in his life. His former Step Dad stayed in his life though he and Emilee divorced. Let's hope he got legal custody of Dallas and will raise him with love.

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    2. The Bio dad WAS in his life all though only for a short time, Emilee thought it was the right thing for Dallas to know him. Dallas has 2 dad's. But only one father and that's who will raise him and love him. We all love him but he is good where he is <3

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  8. Rip sweet mamma your with your angel now

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  9. Anonymous...you know she wont read your comment so why say such things just to cause her family and friends more pain than they are already experiencing? You should have kept those thoughts to yourself.

    To the family and friends....I'm soooo sorry for your loss!!

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  10. Maybe anon is a friend or family that needed to vent on here. Give them a break. Trust me, anon isn't saying anything that everyone isn't already thinking.

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  12. Emilee,
    I never had the chance to meet you, though I wish I had, so beautiful and full of life.
    I've been following your story since you posted your first blog,it was shared with me through a friend of a friend of yours. Your strength and courage through your difficult journey inspired me. You made me realize how important every single second is and how much we should cherish it. I will forever be grateful to you and the inspiration you've given me. You touched so many lives and you didn't even know it, I feel like I have known you and I am heartbroken that you are gone. I pray that you are at peace in Heaven with sweet Leila Grace, snuggled up tight watching over Dallas and Will.
    My thoughts and prayers will be with Dallas and Will every day for the rest of my life that they are able to find peace and comfort in this world with out you.

    Lots of love to all who are hurting
    xoxox
    K

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  13. I read this story today with tears running down my face!
    I'm so sorry for the loss Of your daughter. I'm sorry for the pain you must have felt that ultimately led to your decision to take your own life. I'm sorry for the fiancé you left behind - mostly I'm sorry for your boy.
    I hope you find peace I heaven with your baby girl. I hope you give the loved ones you left behind strength to put back the pieces. I hope your son remeber his mommy with love & light in his eyes.

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  14. We're picturing you with your little girl now. We have to believe that you wouldn't leave Dallas without knowing he would be cared for. We promise to do what ever we can to make sure he's always taken care of.

    CM & JM

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  15. It's almost sad, that you would see a woman out partying and drinking with her so called "best friends" buying shots at the bar 2 weeks after such a tragic loss.
    It's sad,& unfourtane that the people who called her their "bestie" would be out partying with her while she was hurting so bad.
    Depression, bars, drinking, dancing & strip clubs is the last place for someone in mourning to be partaking in.
    For the ones who was right beside her ----SHAME ON YOU! You weren't a friend, but only a part of her demise.
    Almost every picture on FB of emilee an her besties is of her and people partying with her. no one wants to here how sad you're and "what will I do now without my bestie" if you were such a best friend, you should have kept a watchful eye on her.. No one cares how you feel, you should have thought of such when you were feeding her shots at the bar, for the past few weeks, you're pathetic!
    The only one that matters is a 6 year old boy who will never understand why his mommy left him this way.

    Some people are just to selfish to really get it.
    Those nights she was sad and out should've been home holding the child she had every reason to live for. ---- A true friend would have saw and recognized what was coming, not worrying about what party dress and heels you were going to wear out for the next big event or holiday party downtown.
    Sad,sad,sad, and most of all... The most tragic thing her son will ever have to over come.
    I pray for him and his journey through life & hope his father and their family spend as much time with him as possible for life is precious and no 6 year old should have to wake up without mommy by their side..
    Rip Eimlee Granatowski

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    1. So horrible, so tragic, so....... there just are no words. I read all the blogs, I read her pages, I read so much and see so much life so much beauty in her.... it is not comprehensible for anyone to understand what she was going through...... and yet many minds especially us parents, go to her son who was left behind. How did she choose her grief and her loss of her baby girl over her son who now has to live his life without the most important person in a child's life... he is now a child without a mom and a child who is so young that he will barely remember her in the years to come, he will remember from pictures but not be able to hear her voice in his head, to remember only from other peoples memories, it is just horribly tragic all the way around..... I pray for those left behind, for her child who will grow up wondering why she didn't choose him. I'm sorry if this is offensive to anyone but it is from the pain I feel from following this and it angers me. Suicide is selfish and yes ends your pain but what about the pain it causes for everyone else left behind. I pray for those left behind this to heal and find peace somehow with this horrible tragedy.

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    2. Shame on you for attempting to air dirty laundry on such a sad and devasting subject.For you to assume it would be acceptable to post such a cruel message during this family's time of tragedy and loss is true selfishness. Im sure all in the situation have regrets and will have to live with those feelings forever. This blog is a place to celebrate not only the short life of an angel but also the courage it took for the mother and father to continue the pregnancy when many might not have. It is not the place to be hurtful and cowardly. If you were as brave as you want others to percieve you as, reach out to the people you seem to know so much about and talk to them about your feelings and disappointments. Have some respect for the memory of this sweet child and her grieving mother.

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    3. Dear mr/miss coward who cannot use their real name, , first and foremost, you might be referring to my picture of the shots EM made up for her lost baby girl "sweet and strong just like Leila" I believe were the words she used to describe this. Have YOU ever lost your mother, your father, and your baby, and been divorced and struggled to understand why? Have u ever wanted to be with God SO BAD because you could not take the pain? have you EVER went through with a pregnancy that you KNEW would not ever give you the child you longed for, have YOU ever prepared for you unborn childs death and had to plan their funeral? have you ever had to explain to your 5 year old why his baby sister is not going to survive, or where she is? yeah, unless your name is Emilee, I would assume not, and judging by your poor judgement of character, I would also assume you have never experienced anything like Emilee did in her life or perhaps you would not be so naive and unintelligent. how DARE YOU post a something like this, We took shots because it is easier to deal with the pain, do not EVER call any of her friends bad friends, her friends (including I) Loved her more than anything and were there for her in ANY way she requested, Emilee did not go get smashed and blackout and wear small dresses, that was not a big part of her life, she had a shot to cope with and calm down after a few weeks of crying her eyes out, and besides who the hell are you to tell someone how they could handle a situation, she looked beautiful in those dresses when she DID GET AN OPPORTUNITY TO BE FREE OF MOMMY DUTY for en evening, I personally have NEVER seen a mother and her 5 year old son have a better relationship, she loved Dallas so so much and for you to ever say how could she leave him is NOT your business, she would have never left her baby boy had she not suffered from so much pain and postpartum, you are pretty pathetic to be putting your twisted opinion on blast seeing as you have NO idea what it's like, and mostly i am offended because there was nothing anyone could have done about it, This was in God's plan all along, so my advice? she probably would not want you following her supporter or not, because anyone who has the audacity to post what you did about her friends and the ones she loved would not be any friend of hers.

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    4. This girl was 25 year old. I'm not one of her friends, but at age 25 we don't always know what to do! Life is about going to bars in your early 20's and maybe her friends thought she needed to get out and live life instead of laying in bed? Maybe they thought they were helping! This wasn't a 40 year old woman that were talking about. I've been 25 (as I'm sure you were once too) and this is what young people do! It doesn't mean they didn't care. It doesn't mean they didn't talk to her about her deceased baby. It doesn't mean they contributed to her suicide! When you're dealing with someone who is so lost it is normal to not know what to do!

      Emilee ending her life was horrible! It was a horrible choice to leave her son behind, but it happened! This was a girl who was too mentally fragile to deal with her own choice to carry this baby and birth it only to see it die. It's too late to reconsider that choice! I have the feeling from what I've read that maybe some of her family is disappointed in Emilee's boyfriend, but can we really blame him? I don't know about you, but I don't know him! Of course he could have done more and so could friends, but they didn't think this would happen. I don't know if you were looking for a reaction with your comment or not, but you got one! Selfish choice? YES! Tragic? YES! She is gone, so please don't blame those who cared for her. They did their best under the circumstances and acted their age!

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    5. Until we have walked just a 'half a mile' in someone else's shoes, who are we to judge or criticize?!

      To Anonymous dated January 5, 2013 2:37 PM - Shame on you!

      To tahnee leann dated January 9, 2013 8:56 PM - It appears you were a personal friend of Emilee's. To all of Emilee's family and personal friends, I did not know Emilee and I do not know any of you, but please accept our most sincere condolences! May the happy memories of Emily that you hold dear in your minds and hearts as a friend, daughter, partner in live, sister and mother, help to ease your sorrow. And especially to her young son left behind here on earth, may the people in your life cradle you and attempt to comfort you in their arms. Those arms will never replace the arms of your sweet mommy but I'm sure the hearts of those people will help your mommy's memory stay alive for you forever! BIG hugs to you all!

      Emilee, rest in peace, and dance like no one's watching in heaven with your sweet baby Leila Grace!

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  16. No, the point of this blog is now to assure this doesn't happen to anyone else, and if that means that someone with information of how friends could have helped but instead were part of her demise, I for one, would like to know so that it DOESN'T HAPPEN AGAIN! Anon 2:37 pm, don't mind these people, they are probably the ones that took her out for shots and are now boo hooing about how they "didn't know it was that bad". Yes, let's celebrate Emilee and Leila's life, but let's also not be blind to the reasons she took her life. This needs to be learning experience for us still here, not taboo just because it makes some uncomfortable. There are people here that are going through the same thing and they deserve the truth of the grief and what it can do and how others can offer PROPER support.

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  17. I guarantee if you were to ask the family, they would NOT MIND having information posted no matter how sad and personal, in order to save another from this tragic ending.

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  18. OMG, HEY BESTIES, You've already contributed to one death, DO NOT CENSOR people on here and contribute to others. Selfish idiots.

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  19. She couldn't even stand those people. She used to always confide in me that the people around her were fake and toxic. She knew. She used to say "what am I doing with them?" Her "best friend" that believes she was close enough to be such a basket case on FB now did nothing positive for her life.

    I loved em and dallas with all my heart. I watched dallas all the time. I will forever regret not inviting dallas to my daughters slumber party on NYE. I didnt want him to be the only boy. I couldve told her how much I loved her, she was worth more and that she was beautiful inside and out.

    I love you EM.

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  20. Thank you for sharing the truth :-)

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  21. You couldnt be more wrong anon 7:45 . I do not know her or her family, i have been following her blog for awhile. I stumbled on her FB page and then began to follow her blog. As a follower it seems pointless and sad to say those kind of things during such a sad time. You could have chosen your words better (while still expressing your feelings), along with anon 8:08. It seems such a beautiful blog is now turning into a trash talking / name calling site. Good job...Im sure thats how Emilee would have wanted things said on a page about her baby. Nonetheless, I hope her true friends and "besties" are now there to lend their comfort and support to her family and son.

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    1. Well said!!!!
      This is NOT what Emilee would've wanted

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  22. Who is to say what Emilee wanted or wants now? That's the whole problem, SHE'S GONE! And we are all dealing with it in different ways. No one should tell another that their way of verbalizing their grief is wrong. Unless it's her fiancee.

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  23. Interesting that so many people are concerned with where to place blame. Her friends, her depression. Here is a woman who lost her mother, father, daughter...was most likely suffering from post-partum...there is no one to blame! It is just a horribly sad, tragic loss. Who really knows WHAT was going through her head. And chastising her for going out to have a drink in honor of her daughter...I know of a lot worse ways to grieve. People are people, they have emotions and feelings that they don't always cope with the way that others would, and certainly not in the most healthy of ways. It wasn't her friend's responsibility to tell a grieving mother "No, we won't help you grieve in that way." Hindsight is ALWAYS 20/20 and it's easy for people to sit back and tell others how Emilee SHOULD have dealt with her pain but that is pointless! The real point here is that suicide leaves MORE victims in its wake and more questions than answers. Not one person really knew the pain that Emilee was feeling and she wasn't anyone's responsibility but her own and her doctors.

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    1. It's a lot easier to get over something you do not know than it is to get over something you've seen and bonded with. Some aren't cut out for dealing with this much heartache.

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    2. ^This reply is in the wrong place (1/13/13 9:58pm). It's intended for anonymous at 7:57 pm on 1/12/13

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  24. My comment will be respectful..... This was a horrible tragedy that I've thought of daily since I heard the news. No, I did not know Emilee personally, but I read her blog. She was clearly devastated beyond belief. From all I've read, this was an open minded girl who did not judge anyone for their choices when they find out their baby has a fatal condition. She chose to continue on and see this baby, which proved to be too much for her. In hindsight I'm sure family members and her partner would have reconsidered this choice has they known it would end this way, but it's too late for that. It does no good to judge her friends or ask where family was! She is gone. She did not see a life without this baby in it, though that is hard for us to understand since she had a little boy. He is the one who will suffer the most! He not only lost his Mother, because now he's going to lose Emilee's boyfriend (the living together on a daily basis) who I'm sure he was close to. How much worse can it get for this poor child? It's really sad that this young, pretty, and smart woman took her life. It's tragic! I think what can be learned by her suicide is to be sure if you're ever in this situation with a pregnancy that emotionally you are strong enough to handle it and think of your living children (if you have them). If you know of someone who is struggling after a loss like this, get them help! Waiting a few days may result in death. I pray that Emilee is in peace and I pray that she is with her daughter because that's where she wanted to be..... My heart breaks for little Dallas who has had his entire world turned upside down!

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  25. I think if she had a chance to do this all over again she would. I don't think she would ever intentionally sacrifice one child for another. She was afraid of herself, for those who do not know that. She cried all the time, she was grieving not only the loss of her daughter but the loss of herself as well. She did not know how to go on, and if she would have decided not to go through with the pregnancy she still would have felt the exact same way. She wanted help, and she went looking for it. She was supposed to get help that very week. She said numerous times she was afraid she would accidentally take her own life. Accidentally. Because when you're grieving on the level she was you do want to die. It does seem easier. And you do what you can just to get through the day. But it does not mean you don't want to exist anymore. It does not mean you never want to come back. She wanted to be stronger than she was. And yes it is tragic that she is gone. But harsh words wont bring her back. Em was loving, and she loved life, despite how hard it was for her. Her friends and family got to experience that first hand. She's gone, and those who don't even know her and are casting judgements and blame should be ashamed of themselves. You may think you're stronger than that and I pray you or those you love never have to go through what she did to see if you indeed are.

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    1. It's a lot easier to get over something you do not know than it is to get over something you've seen and bonded with. Some aren't cut out for dealing with this much heartache.

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    2. Anonymous 10:02 - I almost don't want to indulge you by responding to a comment like yours, but that "something" you are referring to is a CHILD, her daughter. Unless you have been where Emilee and other mothers like her have been, you have no idea what is easier. That is what is so difficult for some people to see...you can sit behind your computer and judge the decisions of others all day long, but until you are faced with a situation this heart-breaking, you will have no idea. Don't be hurtful just because you can.

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    3. Well, clearly you do not share in Emilee's open mindedness when it comes to a fatal diagnosis. I don't feel you deserve a reply, but based on the outcome, this is absolutely something she could not handle and it is easier to mourn the unknown than the known! A boy is left without a Mother and that's the biggest tragedy of all. Her daughter had a fatal defect and died, but he did not. She had an obligation to stay on earth for him. You may have your own views on this since you may have gone through this, but she made the wrong choice no matter what spin you try to put on it. This isn't about pro choice or pro life. This is about making a choice that is right for your circumstances when given this horrific diagnosis. The end result will be the same. It's a matter of what a person can handle. Some people are just too fragile to deal with something like this. Quit projecting your own experience on her! You are not her!

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    4. Anonymous 7:33PM - I'm not sure if your response was meant for me or not because I'm a little confused and think you might have misunderstood me, so I think I'll try to delicately reply. I do absolutely share Emilee's open-mindedness...I'm currently 9 months pregnant with an anencephalic little girl; our due dates were just a few weeks apart and that is how I came to know Emilee. So I'm not projecting my experience on her, I'm discussing it as someone who experienced it with her from a distance for a short time. I do agree that her son's loss is one of the saddest consequences of all of this, absolutely heart-breaking. The only point I am trying to make is that it is easy to sit here now, to judge and say that she made "the wrong choice"...but that is only because we know the outcome. There is not a "right" choice or a "wrong" choice when you are faced with a decision like we have had to make...you simply do the best you can with the information that you have and pray for the best. There are probably some who are "too fragile" for this...unfortunately, we don't get to choose...either way, our baby is going to die and our only choice is "now" or "later." It's a crappy choice and I know Emilee cherished Leila, so a loss at any point is still a devastating loss. I don't want to continue to argue but feel that it's important to try to clarify; I hope it is received in that way.

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  26. Very well said anon 7:57 pm.

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  27. I really think that all the people who are saying harsh things about Emilee are just struggling within themselves. Judgements are a reflection of yourself, not the person you are judging. I did not know Emilee but I am friends with one of her good friends and I know that she has been very offended by the rude comments about this whole situation. Sometimes, people get so caught up in their thoughts and their thoughts can literally tear them down and make them get so caught up in them and they eat away at you.. Literally. This story is so sad to me, but I understand how she got caught up in this, she struggled and she lost her baby girl and didn't understand it. I know she is now looking down on those who loved her and smiling and wants people to know that she is no longer suffering and the people who are judging her she is wishing that you would just leave it, but understands that it is a reflection of yourself, not her. Just my two cents. I think she was beautiful and from what I heard on the inside as well, please just let her rest in peace and keep your judgements to yourself.

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  28. I, like others of you, am a friend of Emilee's...we met because our little girls were due within just a few weeks of one another, so we bonded over the diagnosis that they both shared. I don't want to take the time to address those who have said hurtful, hateful things but those who have said things about "the pain of carrying to term being too much" prompted me to do some reflection on that. If you're interested, I wanted to share my own blog on that topic to give you a different perspective from someone who is in the middle of it. http://oneangelsjourney.blogspot.com/2013/01/what-kind-of-choice-is-that.html

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  29. Agreed Mom of an angel!!! I'm a mom of an angel myself!!

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  30. I did a tribute to Emilee on my blog and she was the inspiration for me to start a blog.
    http://angelheartsforever.blogspot.com/

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  31. It's been awhile since I've looked at your blog, My heart is tender and I wasn't sure if I was really ready to read what people have written....I miss you Em and Leila.... It's hard to read all of these posts...My instinct was true. These post are true feelings of a lot of people, some heartfelt, some gut wrenching...
    But ALL that matters is your at peace. It's time to heal, not judge. I pray that everyone effected by your loss finds peace as well. Our family life and gatherings will never be the same but we know you and Leila will be there. I pray Dallas stays strong and becomes the man you intended on him being as I know he will. I pray that the whole family can find forgiveness and peace and we all will reunite together. Blood or not. Were all connected. I love you Emilee thank you for showering us all with your love, smiles and laughter...
    I will see you later, until then fly and be free

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  32. I think that all this drama needs to go somewhere else...u think she was weak n that her friends should have helped more...well until u go through what she did n feel EXACTLY the way she felt, u have no room to judge...as for her little boy, whats better for him? Watching mommy cry day in n day out? Yall need to grow up n move the drama elsewhere! To the family, i am so sorry for ur loss.

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  33. January 5 anonymous youre a fucking dumbass piece of shit i was emilies step son. How dare you insult her friends. All of her friends i ever met were loving nd supportive helpfull and amazing so for you to post that is just ignorant. I hope you find reality in your little dream world where nothing hoes wrong ever

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  34. The worst thing about this all is that she's not with her baby, even now. Leila wasn't at an age of accountability so she entered into the joys of the Lord and is in Heaven. This mother, on the other hand, is not. She will forever be tormented. It isn't the excape that she was hoping for. Heart breaking.

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  35. I believe in a Heavenly Father that loves his children, not a vengeful God. Who are you to judge anyone eternally? Shame on you, and I also believe in Karma. You may find yourself in the same throws of despair. Have you ever suffered such a loss and had post pardum depression? Let her soul res t and pray for your own callus, judge mental hypocritical self!

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  36. Just a comment to all the horrible things that have been said. First off, do not blame her friends for her passing. They did their best and had no clue she would end up dead! Don't you think they feel bad enough without having to read all these posts that blame them? They acted like 20 something year olds do. They believed if they took Emilee out to have fun it would help! They are not responsible for her choices.

    To Anonymous on April 4 who has the nerve to point out that Emilee is condemned to hell. Shame on you! You are evil! Yes, the bible says suicide is the ultimate sin, but I believe in a loving God who forgives. I believe he was with Emilee in her darkest hour when she felt she could not go on. I believe he would forgive anyone who is that mentally distraught! I think you believe in an Evil God, but I don't.

    The reactions here have been mixed, but clearly, this is tragic. Months have gone by and I still think of this girl I never met. Her choices weren't the best, but she made the only choice she could see in her deep despair. I hope none of you ever end up in such a dark place. It is awful that a little innocent boy is left behind. It is awful that she succeeded in ending her life. None of this can be changed. Let's all show a little compassion towards her friends who loved her and towards her fragile soul that could not handle anymore sadness. Those who preach condemnation in the name of the Lord are not real Christians and turn people off to Christianity. Only God is to judge, not us. Next time you want to say Emilee is in hell, just remember that with your judging you are headed there yourself! If all of this could be handled differently, I'm certain it would have been. This was a young woman who didn't realize at the time that she was too fragile to deal with another loss. How can anyone judge or condemn her for that??

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