Wednesday, November 7, 2012

What Makes a Mother?

I thought of you and closed my eyes.
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a mother and
I know I heard him say,

A mother has a baby.
This we know is true.
But God, can you be a mother
when your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can, He replied
with confidence in His voice.
I give many women babies.
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime
and others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb
but there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this. God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared His throat
and then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you
what your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
with other children and say,

"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of life and love and fear.
My Mommy loved me, Oh so much,
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom
who had so much love for me,
I learned my lesson very quickly.
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy, Oh so much,
but I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
on her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
and whisper in her ear,
'Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'"

So you see, my dear sweet one,
your children are okay.
Your babies are here in MY home
and this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with ME
until your lesson is through.
And on the day that you come home,
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother—
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of,
right from the very start.

Though some on earth may not realize you are a Mother,
until their time is done.
They'll be up here with ME one day,
and know you're the best one.

This poem was shared with me on Leila's Facebook by a fellow mother of an angel. When people question my reason for carrying a child that we know will not survive on our earth, my response is that no matter how long her stay, she has been our little girl since the day she was created and that has not changed with her diagnosis. Though we may not hold her in our arms forever the way we planned, we will hold her so closely in our hearts and as long as she is thriving, we will share her life. This poem describes this perfectly.

2 comments:

  1. Hey mama... I'm Born2BeAmom from your JM DDC. I just wanted to give you a virtual hug and tell you how wonderful I think you are. You are appreciating your daughter's beautiful life every moment which is how God intended it to be. Each moment you have her with you is a blessing and don't let anyone tell you otherwise! I've lost 4. I never had to go through what you're going through but I would make the same decision as you. Hang in there... enjoy every day and know you have people praying for you. *hugs*

    Kristy

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  2. Oh Emilee - it isn't very often that I cry from things I read right now, but this one was exceptional. Thank you for sharing it because I really needed it tonight. Hugs.

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